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Yang I got engaged
To Neo
She gave me a ring right before we had birthday sex and I think it's starting to sink in

[ at around 4:30 ]

First off congrats on the sex
Second off congrats on the birthday

And third off CONGRATS ON GETTING ENGAGED
HECK YEAH
SHOW THE RING YOU COWARD

Tell me it looks amazing and that it's perfect for me

[she sends a dim picture of it; she's clearly still in bed next to neo's sleeping body and doesn't want to hit the flash, but it's close and clear enough to tell that the diamond is, like. maybe not huge but still impressive. and she's got it on her finger. and she's happy with the way it looks on her finger. and she's gay.]

And then tell me it's normal to be up in the middle of the night with my heart pounding in my head

[ daaaaaaaaamn. color yang impressed. ]

Holy crap! Em!!!
That looks freaking incredible and it's perfect
Neo went all out
And yeah duh it's normal, you're getting married to the girl you love. Anybody's heart would be going a million miles a minute
It's a big step

Yeah and it's not one I ever thought in a million years I would get
Or that I'd beat you two to it
You're gonna propose to her, right?
Tell me how you're gonna do it, I wanna hear that you have a better plan for this than we did
Just so it feels a little more normal

Since you got there first it means I'm legally allowed to be loud and embarrassing at your wedding
Be prepared

[ there's bouncing dots for a while. the answer is obvious, but she hasn't talked about this with anyone other than blake. even then they'd discussed it in barely veiled hypotheticals, too aware of the situation on remnant to make definite plans for a future that may never come. ]

Of course I'm gonna propose.
We talked a little bit about what we wanted if we manage to beat Salem and yeah. We're on the same page
As for how, the birthday sex idea has merit so I wanna keep that in my back pocket
Thank Neo for that idea for me

But I dunno. I think I'd like to ask her on the beach at night.
She'd hate something public or overdone and that's not something I'd want to do anyway
So it'd be best if it were a private beach. No one around but us with a nice view of the stars
Before I ask I say something funny or romantic or. Something.
Knowing me I'll end up saying something gay and stupid and Blake will say "ha that's gay"
Then I pull out the ring. A nice one with purple gems in it or one of those rings that has both our colors on it? I'm not sure
Either way I pull it out and ask and she says yes
Then we start the rest of our lives

[ a beat. oh no oh god that's too vulnerable, make another joke ]

Brothers that's cheesy
Birthday sex might be more exciting

Well, she'd be right
That's pretty gay

[but it... it feels weird that it's making emerald's heart calm down a little. this strange emotion of "yes, of course yang's planned it all out like this, and of course it's the most beautiful thing you've ever heard". it feels normal in a way that might once have scared her. emerald and neo, they're the spontaneous ones. yang and blake are the ones who have been tied together by bottle caps in the sea, guided back to each other by starlight. and all is right under sodder's sky.]

Be cheesy
It's who you are, Yang
And it's who I hope you never stop being
You love her and you should do anything and everything it takes to show her how much that means to you

Though the combination birthday and proposal sex is pretty fucking good, I won't lie

I plan on it
The showing her how much I care and being myself part, not the being cheesy part
Because in actuality I'm cool

[ there's something poetic about emerald sustrai (emerald politan?) encouraging yang to be herself, to love without shame, to unabashedly suggest reveling in happiness while it's there rather than looking over her shoulder for the next tragedy. a diamond in the rough realizing their own worth, maybe. the light in her soul finally blazing bright after years of pretending it was never there.

but yang's no poet and won't pretend to be. especially not at 4 in the morning. ]

Nothing says "Happy birthday, I want to spend the rest of my life with you" like eating your brand new fiancée out for an hour

Gods, you guys can go for an hour?
I'm still learning, I guess
But that's not the point, the point is that like
I just want you two to be happy

Like, I'm gonna get gay here for a second too so bear with me but it's because of you that I learned that I need to be true to myself and it's because of Blake that I really, really learned that who I am isn't who I'll always be

And if you two don't get to be happy, here or in Remnant or whatever world anyone ends up in or whatever, I'm gonna find a way to punch the brothers in their featureless faces myself

[ teaching or leading people has never her realm of expertise. that's always been the forte of her other teammates: ruby with her open heart and tactical mind, weiss with her keen eye for detail and surprising kindness, blake with her fiery passion and intelligence. they could see the big picture from every angle and carry out whatever plan with utmost precision.

but yang? all she's ever wanted to be is a person and Huntress her mother would be proud of. the idea that she's actively helped someone learn, that they've taken something from her to grow into someone they like....

yang may be a little misty-eyed. she may wish blake was here so she could see how much she does for others although she can't see it. ]

There's a lot of reasons they deserve to get punched
But it's nice you think I'm one of them. Thanks

And you know this goes the other way around right
You and Neo deserve this. Being happy and getting gay married and all that good stuff
Just...I dunno, you helped me remember that giving people second chances can be worth it
So you should get yours with the love of your life
And if anyone tries taking that from you I'll suplex them into the ground

Yang I'm gonna start crying again
You always know exactly what to say to make me remember how far I've come
A year ago you never would've been saying this stuff to me and you probably would've just wanted to kick my ass and now you're my sister and I'm your sister and we're gonna be adding two new sisters-in-law to the family and I'm just

[she can't think how to continue, so she just sends it after a moment's pause.]

I love you so much
Thank you for always being here for me even when I didn't think I was worth it
And for showing me that I'm always worth it
I can't wait to be at your wedding
You're going to look so beautiful

[gods, she feels so. silly. so stupid saying it. there's dots on her end as she types out ways to soften what she just said. ways to make it hit less, ways to hide it in different layers of irony or whatever. and she stops. and deletes it all. she doesn't need to hide. she doesn't have to be someone she isn't. if she wants to call yang beautiful, then she should do it without fear.]

You don't have to thank me for any of that. Really. I would have wanted to do that anyway
Thanks for letting me stick around. And for building me up when I need it
I love you too

[ their family is full of broken people--downtrodden, lonely, powerless--and somehow, they've made it work. they're stronger together, and if emerald is no longer afraid to recognize and grasp happiness with her own two hands then neither is yang.

or well. yang will grasp happiness with her one hand. you know. ]

Yeah I'm going to look beautiful at my wedding but that's forever away
Let's talk about YOURS which is gonna happen SOON and that you'll look EVEN MORE BEAUTIFUL at
Who's ring bearer going to be and why is it Zwei

....WAIT
YOUR DRESS
WE GET TO SHOP FOR DRESSES
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

[ someone may be excited. ]

[gods, she wants to laugh out loud, but she doesn't want to wake neo. too bad that yang is just... so incredible and funny and the excitement is infectious. almost to the point where she feels bad responding the way she does.]

Oh my gods
Well like, okay, hear me out on this
You know I'm not really super big on dresses, and I could like try some on if you really wanted to, but
I was kind of thinking of being the one who wears the suit
Neo's way better at looking pretty and being frilly and stuff, and I think I can pull off the whole classy tux look pretty well

Um, sorry to suck the wind out of your sails

[ no dress? no problem, no loss of enthusiasm here whatsoever! ]

Uh are you kidding???
We get to shop for tuxes! YOUR TUX!!!
THAT YOU'RE GONNA WEAR AT YOUR WEDDING!!! WHERE YOU WILL GET A WIFE!!!!!
You're already going to look killer but we absolutely have to make sure you are the hottest person in a tux in the room

[yang xiao long has the biggest and most open heart of anyone that emerald sustrai has ever been so privileged to know.]

Gods you are so much in the best ways
You're gonna make me cry for the 20th time in the past three hours
I'm gonna have a WIFE
How is that even POSSIBLE
Ohhhhh my gods.
Okay. Okay.
Breathing.

I wanna have something that doesn't overshadow her, but something that still makes me look incredible all on my own because if you think I'm looking anything less than my best on my wedding day you're out of your mind
Just something... I don't know
Normal tux or suit colors, I guess
Monochrome or something
Maybe with a little splash of color in the tie or the uhhh thing you shove into the jacket pocket so it looks like you know how to wear a suit right

I was thinking gold could look good

[ uh oh sisters! yang xiao long is close to crying again because of unexpected love and affection! what else is new ]

It's called a pocket square.
And gold is pretty much the best color so I won't fight you on that one
Normal tux colors sound good though. Maybe a white jacket with black pants? With something else fancy
Suspenders?? What're your thoughts

I think I could rock some suspenders, yeah
Think about how good they'd look when I take the jacket off
Plus Neo can do the stupid romantic thing and pull me into our first kiss with them or something
Gods I'm a mess, I didn't just type that, shut up, you're gay
I'M GONNA GET MARRIED, YANG???

YOU'RE GONNA GET MARRIED TO THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE!!!
The whole thing will be even more gay than you are
Uncle Qrow's gonna cry, I'm gonna cry, Oscar's gonna cry, Ruby will eat all of your cake
It'll be the best

Gods you keep calling her that
You're right, it's right, it's the right thing to call her, it just feels so weird
I know we already talked about how it's like REALLY not fair for me to compare us to you two but gods
I really do love her so much
I didn't know I was allowed to have this much love inside me
I can't believe you guys have been feeling this way the whole godsdamned time and you didn't tell me
I'm gonna get so emotional it's gonna make Ruby cry too
And Oscar and maybe even Glitch
Since I can't just not invite the leader of my new huntress team

If you recall you were the one who called her that while painting her nails at the sleepover
So I'm just following your example

Oh that's right! GORE right? Nice job on getting the coolest team name ever
Glitch seems like the kinda person who makes a good leader
He's prickly but kind once you get past it. Fast thinker, good head on his shoulders
Heck he might cry who knows

Ugh shut UP you know I only called her that to make fun of you and Blake, right?
I was honestly still really scared about the idea of calling her anything like that back then
We only just started dating, we just had that vision of us getting married and having a life together
I still wasn't telling her shit about my problems
I mean, gods, I talked to you more than I ever did to her
You'd think I was the one who was dating you or something
But like
Yeah
I'm just glad that I'm confident enough in who I am and who she is that it's not weird to be Yang-brand gay at her

Speaking of you
Did Glitch ever talk to you about arm stuff?

Ha well joke's on you
But honestly sometimes you've gotta grow into a relationship. Trusting in yourself and your partner to talk about your problems is scary
And sure you were scared before but look at you now!!! Surpassing Yang-brand gay and everything
I'm happy I was able to help out with that
Apologies to Neo for making it look like we were dating rather than you two. I'm not a homewrecker promise

We did actually
I went to check on him after everyone moved into Ozpin's place since....you know
Got the experience and all
Talked for a while about everything

Gods, it's okay, don't worry about it
We are where we are now, and I'm so, so happy that we are what we are
You and me, me and Neo
I don't want it to be any different than the way it is now

[there's a bit of a pause as she gets up out of bed slowly, carefully. kisses neo's forehead. takes some quiet steps out into the main room and sits down on the couch. she types this next line while she walks.]

Because I know there's a lot of ways this could have played out differently, and there might even be some timelines or whatever where it all did

[and she types out what she wants to say. in some ways, what she's wanted to say for weeks. months.]

When we were on that hill, under the moonlight, looking at stars and talking about our lives together... there's a world out there where I kissed you that night.

[ the pause is much longer on yang's end, bouncing dots appearing every few seconds and disappearing just as quickly. this isn't...a big surprise. not really. hell, they'd pretty much spelled out "you're my type" during their intense game of gay chicken at the sleepover. can't walk that back.

and the reality is that yang is very aware they would have been compatible. maybe more than that. if they'd met a few years earlier or their lives had taken a few lefts instead of rights, who knows where they'd be?

but they're here now. and yang's got no regrets and no reason to hide the truth. ]

There's a world where I kissed you back
Got no clue how that would have worked out but at the end of the day but I agree with you
The way we've got it right now.... It's pretty much perfect

[ she turns her head to the left and sighs, the empty space in her bed feeling larger and colder than usual. no. not completely perfect. ]

We're all one big dumb chaotic family and it's awesome
Family dinners are about to be wild

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