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[thank the gods this is over text because she's already sniffling. the last couple sentences hit her hard. she wants to be loved and other people want to love her. and she's letting them, and it feels right.]

I want to know what real love feels like.
Whether it's with my girlfriend or with my friends or with people I can look up to.
I want to keep knowing it for as long as I can.

I know I won't always get it right. I'm still learning to be the kind of person that I can be proud of.
But it's going to be a lot easier with you and everyone else helping me.
It feels really stupid to say but, like.

[lots of dots, but mostly just because she's embarrassed.]

When I said I would've liked to have a sister like you growing up, I mean.
That doesn't rule it out now, right?

[ the dots start and stop for a while. yang isn't hesitant to agree, but just...overwhelmed. emerald is asking for someone to take her hand, and that someone is her.

this feels important. big. so she takes her time with her response. ]

No it doesn't rule it out
If that's what you want then, yeah
I'll be your cooler older sister who embarrasses you in front of your girlfriend.
I solemnly promise to be a bad influence

So don't worry about messing up. Everyone does at some point
All we can do is talk things out when it gets bad, forgive each other if we can, and move on
That's what sisters do

[it takes a few seconds for the messages to even come through as read. as soon as Emerald had sent that last question, she'd thrown her phone down on the couch and refused to look at it until the answer came. and when it does, she's not sure she has the words.]

It feels like the closest thing to what I want and I have no idea how to really handle it.
But like. Gods. I just really want a family and I want you to be a part of it.
So... thanks. Thank you.
I know it's a weird thing to ask but you literally didn't even think twice about it, did you?
Ugh. Unbelievable.

Gods, you got me tearing up again. I'm so fucking gay.

[ "i want you to be a part of it." i want you here. i'm choosing you.

yeah, it's a good thing this conversation is happening over text. it's a lot easier to wipe at the tears that spring at the corner of her eyes that way. ]

That....... That means a lot to me to hear you say that. Type that. Whatever, same difference
I didn't have to think about it for more than a second. So there's no thanks needed.
I won't let you down.

And yeah you're gay but I wasn't gonna break that to you until later
We have to do revelations in baby steps Em

[right now, right here, she knows she'll make the choice as many times as she may have to. if her past comes calling for her again, if Sodder dreams up the worst nightmares of Emerald's life, she's confident she'll guide herself back to the points of light in the darkness.]

I'll do my best to not let you down, too.
I'm still working through this, so I'm probably gonna get some things wrong.
But it's like you said. If I do, we'll talk it out, we'll forgive if we can, and we'll keep going.
I could get used to that.

I can't believe you were gonna wait to tell me I'm gay until our all-girl sleepover.
I never would've known otherwise! That was critical information you were keeping from me, sis!

[oh. she likes how saying that feels. heh.]

[ there's a big, bright grin on yang's face although emerald can't see it. sarcastic and surprisingly big-hearted? oh, she fits right in with the xiao long-rose-branwen brood. tai is gonna love her. ]

Right. We move forward one step at a time.

You should be told you're gay while surrounded by other gay girls while we paint our nails and swap weapon cleaning techniques. You know, a supportive setting
We could even call your girlfriend for moral support
That way you've got everything you need to recover from such a staggering blow

Gods, you really planned all this out.
Is this what regular girls do with their lives all the time?
You know, I could get used to this. I never had the chance to just do girl stuff growing up.
I know you're making fun of me for being super gay and all, but it honestly sounds really nice.

I'll be honest, I've got no clue what regular girls do
Huntsmen families aren't normal
Mom was showing me stuff about knives as soon as I could talk, Dad and Qrow were teaching me hand to hand and other basic stuff from the time I could walk, and me and Ruby spent most of our sleepovers outside sparring until we couldn't stand up anymore
But we can all catch up on regular girl experiences
Pizza and gossip sounds kinda awesome.

I thought we got all our gossip out in the group chat these days.
I'm gonna have to learn some juicy stuff and hang on to it. And you KNOW I have terrible impulse control.
What kind of stuff do you put on your pizza, anyway?
Yes, this has a right answer. An answer that may affect our ability to truly be sisters.

We do but imagine just girls gossiping
No Uncle Qrow and Uncle Clover hanging out, no Ozpin
Just us gays. You know how we are.
And you say you have terrible impulse control. Have you met me?
If it weren't for Weiss and Blake I might have been expelled from Beacon that first month

Okay so for pizza, any meat toping is good
I like spicy things
Vegetables are fine, but no bell peppers
And pineapples are delicious

Oh my gods, that sounds heavenly.
Like, don't get me wrong, Qrow (Uncle Qrow? Gods, do I have to call him uncle now?) is fine, I have no problems with him, but there's a difference.
The vibes are different when it's all girls.
What exactly did Weiss do to keep you in line? Hold your arms back so you didn't beat Jaune over the head with his own shield for doing something stupid?
Or were you just too cool for the school and you needed her there to prove that you knew how to talk to nerds?

Pineapple.
You put pineapple on pizza.
Thank the gods, we can still be sisters.

Like Weiss could hold me back at all with her noodle arms
She mostly did a lot of yelling and making us study under pain of more yelling
Now she breaks rules all the time. Growth

Brothers, thank YOU
You get it, pineapple is delicious people just don't understand

Proud of her. Proud of this little mean girl who's gotten better at breaking the rules.
And I... I meant that as a joke, but I think I actually am?
I haven't even talked to her that much, but I can tell just by looking at her that she's broken free from her father. Almost completely.
So yeah, I am proud of her.

It's really good!! People really just don't understand.
It's the savory pizza and the sweet fruit and if you combine it with ham? It's just. Ugh. It's good.
I haven't had it in a really long time. We need to get some pineapple and ham pizza and some terrible drinks and paint our nails.

Fun fact, she arrested her dad for election fraud on top of a billion other things
The world's ending but her dad is in jail and I'll take that win
And yeah there's a lot to be proud of when it comes to Weiss. She can do Freezerburn on her own now! And I think she finally understands how to eat hamburgers
She's come really far

Em we really can be sisters. Brothers, how are we so smart and have the best pizza taste
It's unfair to everyone else
Just name a day and we'll do it. The farmhouse is big enough for people to crash at

Wow... so much growth.
She found out what a burger is AND she smashed the patriarchy?
I'd be glad to have her at our big gay sleepover.
We could probably do something... I don't know, near the end of the month?
Tis the season, apparently.
I want to give myself a little more time to get used to being around Blake, or I guess to get her used to being around me.
But I think we could all use something nice and fun right about now.

Yeah tis the season. Or something
This Christmas holiday has some confusing messaging but I keep hearing "peace on earth and goodwill towards men," "hang out with people you love," and "there's a guy who breaks and enters in to your house to leave you gifts"
Only the first two of those are appealing and we only have the power to do the second one so!
Let's hang out

I'll check with the rest of the team and get back to you?

Sounds like a plan.
Is it weird to have, like, butterflies in my stomach about this?
I'm pretty sure everyone's gonna be on board, but... I don't know.
It's exciting. Is this how you felt when you started hanging out with other people like this?

[ emerald sustrai, we are going to get you some friends. on god, bro. ]

Being excited to to hang out with people you want to know better is totally normal
You're not weird
I know I was pretty dang excited to have JNPR as our neighbors at Beacon. And when we met CFVY I was over the moon
Getting to know people is fun. You'll see
And no one's more fun than team RWBY

I don't know, Neon looked like she could party pretty hard...

Gods though. Sometimes I ask stuff and you fire back like that and I realize how messed up and not normal my entire life has been up to about six months ago.
Thanks for never making fun of me about it in a place where I can see it.

Okay Neon can party but she parties way too hard
Blake and I went out dancing with team FNKI and.......
Okay imagine regular Neon but cranked up to 20. And drunk
Never have I been more thankful clubs are so loud they drown people out
Or at least you can pretend you can't hear them

[ there's a pause in messages as yang tries to parse those last few messages. yes, she knows that emerald hasn't had the most nurturing environment, but.... make fun of her progress? of her showing emotional vulnerability for the first time in forever? ]

Em you're getting a brand new start.
I'd never make fun of you for that. Not in front of your face or in private.
Ever.

Yang...

You really do have the biggest, most open heart of anyone I've ever met.
Maybe one day I'll get there, too.
Thank you. For everything that you're giving me.

If you're looking for someone with the biggest heart you might want to text Ruby Rose
And you'll get there one day. Just takes time.

Thank you for giving me another sister.

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